Thursday, March 29, 2007
i can be brown i can blue i can be violet sky


My happy song of the moment. It makes me smile. It makes me want to jump and throw my arms up like a madwoman. It makes work bearable. I just can't reach the high notes.
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Monday, March 26, 2007
i am a sinner, this is my karma
This is bad. I am being punished. I can so tell. But really, did it have to happen? I was on a high. I was winning the bid! Come oonnnn!!! *whine*

Okay fine, here's the story. I couldn't help it. I was bidding on 28 rolls of film. They would originally cost about 150-250 Php each, because they are professional films and kinds rarely sold here. But since it's expired and they are being sold in bulk, they come down to just a hundred bucks. I won the bid. I payed through paypal. I used my magical Visa debit card. What could possibly go wrong?

For one thing, Paypal didn't send me a transaction receipt. They brought me to this page that said the transaction/payment was completed and that they will email me a receipt. But lo and behold, no receipt ever came in sight. Second thing, the seller has confirmed that she/he hasn't gotten the payment yet! Packershet ever. Third and most disturbingly stressful of all, the item has already been charged to my account!

I want to die.

dezphaire strapped in @ 2:35 PM   2 walked through

Sunday, March 18, 2007
everyone's talking about it
I watched 300. Finally. A testosterone-filled movie. But I could feel the estrogen levels of the women in the theater rising. It was a feast. Cinematic. Utterly beautiful. A refreshing take on how to film an epic. I love the graphic treatment. It made the beheading of breathlessly beautiful men more bearable. Okay, I will stop trying to yammer about what everyone else has probably already praised. Instead indulge me in my little senseless thought balloons as I was digesting this beautiful production:

1. The casting department must have had a grand hell of a time.

2. God, look at those abs.

3. Oh, their arms are so toned... hug me, please. Any one of you.

4. I want to be a drugged Oracle.

5. A lot of hair waxing probably went on...

6. Kissing King Leonidas must be itchy.

7. I want to be a Spartan woman.

8. And I want the Queen's dresses.

9. Xerxes was one huge scary-ass gay man.

10. Why did they have to kill the horses!??

11. Wow, I want to jump and knife someone's arm off too.

12. King Leonidas is so cute when he's sarcastic.

13. God, even the old people had toned muscles.

14. Ooohwaa ooohhwaaa ooohhwaaahhh!!!!
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Friday, March 16, 2007
the lenten forgotten
Okay so it's been what... more than a week since this whole "no buying of film or cameras" thing entered my life. The beautiful camera is still on eBay. The seller re-listed it. Maybe the other bidders didn't get to complete the transaction. Maybe the devil is trying to taunt me. Maybe the seller is the devil. So far, I've been successful in limiting my eBay transactions to "watching".

But I completely forgot about this "no buying" thing on non-eBay transactions. The resident supplier of expired film for LomoManila sent an email announcing new arrivals. Films not normally available in stores at discount prices. The hoarder in me just went berzerk. So there, before I knew it, I was buying in bulk. There. Done. Dammit.

I'll blame it on short term memory.

Okay, that will just be me making excuses.


I'm a failure. I can't control myself.

So I guess now I can bid on the Taxona?
dezphaire strapped in @ 9:42 AM   0 walked through

Friday, March 09, 2007
the lenten negotiation
I want to keep my "sacrifice" of not buying film or cameras for the season of Lent. The operative word being "buying". Purchases made by me. So... can any kind soul grant me a Zeiss Ikon Taxona? Look! It's very pretty!

Man, this is getting mighty desperate.
dezphaire strapped in @ 11:15 AM   4 walked through

Thursday, March 08, 2007
the lenten sacrifice
Chips induced a "konsensya" moment upon me yesterday. I didn't have a sacrifice for Lent. In the past years, I used to give up coffee. But well... doing that now would just leave me asleep or cranky, and downright useless. He suggested cutting down on rice. But I barely even eat rice. I can't even finish have a cup. And so he suggested...

No buying of new cameras or film until Easter.

Nooooooooooooooooo!!!! Omigod. I don't know if I can take it. I'm watching for 2 bulks of films and a beautiful vintage camera on eBay. They only have 4 days left! Will I be able to restrain myself? I don't know if I even want this to happen! Well, I DON'T!

I hate this feeling of helplessness. It's making me wriggle.
dezphaire strapped in @ 10:57 AM   1 walked through

Monday, March 05, 2007
advance happy vacation
Thanks Cebu Pacific, for pulling a part two of this wondrous cheapo rate promo. I now have a pre-planned vacation for October. We're going to Bohol. Yehey! A brand new destination for me and my Lomo babies.

It's still far away... but I'm comforted by the fact that a beautiful vacation awaits.
dezphaire strapped in @ 7:06 PM   1 walked through

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